I have used up about a month's worth of emotions on one stupid event. I have been through the entire spectrum of emotions and have come out feeling exhausted, all over next to nothing. What if I have no emotions left to react to my exam results next week?I don't care anymore. I feel deceived and lied to by two of the people that I adore most in the world. But I'll work and shop like hell this week, I'll get my results and have the weekend of my life in Leeds next week, I'll come back feeling alright and I'll forgive them. I hope they get together because if they don't then all my emotion really was expended over nothing. But also, I hope they don't get together. She's says she will not be losing her virginity to him. I can't decide if this is good or not. When I first met him I was crazy about him. I can't understand why she doesn't want to sleep with him, because I fucking well do. If he offered no strings sex then baby, I wouldn't be online! It's all the relationship crap I don't want. And what, she wants the relationship crap and no sex? So how is it fair that she gets to be with him? On the other hand, maybe nice light relationship crap with no heavy I love yous is just what he needs. All I know is, I need a cigarette.
< - >
* the marks of memories forgotten
* wasting emotions, over again
* intentions, and such
* nothing unusual, nothing's changed - just a little older, that's all (damien rice : amie)
* now I understand! It doesn't make sense because it isn't supposed to
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